I am at a friend house (a close one, know about my family shithole). The house was located between my birth mother’s house - in that house living are mom (in real life: is about going to jail. She is a cunning, evil, manipulated person with the posibilities hurting/harming to people - especially family), grandma (she passed away in real life couple years ago), and the other house is dad’s mother (I never saw her in real life, she passed away when I was a child and she lived far away from me). I didn’t know which house my dad lived in, but I did recall he was in my dream, and one more person, whom i did know (and feel like friend/accquaintance) but couldnt remember who in real life - let’s call this person P. In the dream, I did aware whose are neighbors. My friend asked if I wanted to ask P to come (not because she meet my family in real life nor my friend, I think she just asked because she cared of me). I recal I did want to, but I kind of avoid dad’s mom. So I stay in my friend house, but curiously looking in the house dad’s mom live in - maybe looking for P. then a man came to my house (this guy in real life is just my colleague, we barely talk and interact, and I never think twice about him or what soever. His personalities is a bit eh, but I dont think i care much), nosily looking for me. I recalled avoiding him, not exactly because of him, but because he was looking for me for dad’s mom. … vague memories… fast to next, I was in the house where mom is. So in there, I was stand in the middle. Mom and grandma, also remember feeling dad (but he isn’t actually in my dream, I just feel his existence in the even. And also he still alive in real life). The argue about I angry said: “I have to take care for two of you (interpret: mom and grandma? memories is vague) and also two people in other house (dad’s mom and dad? memories vague).” then i continued: “am i superhero?” I recall my feeling in that conversation: angry, frustrated, disgusted, a little scare because of these people. They were like bloodworm that sucked out of my energy, safetinesss. I remembee not feeling safe around them. And there re guilt trip, they all act like old, weak and guilt trip me so I have to take care of them, by providing them money and raise them. I feel suffocated. Then it was like in a horro movie, mom slowly stood up in a quirky, strange movement and came towards me after my talks. I recall I already cautious of these people, especially mom. So seeing her moving, my instinct is run. I run to the next house, and there was one of my collegue (nice one, we have good relationship, feel safe with him in a certain level, but also not too close or we have any romantic feeling. And I also dont think twice about him in real life). I remember he said something like “your mom is coming in crazy, I dont want to be there”. So he ran in to the second floor with balcony, and also I. So he and I watching from the balcony of second floor, seeing mom holding a knife on her hand, running to the house where I hide. She can only stand in front of the door and not able to came in, even the door is widely open. On the ground floor there are other people. I dont recall who they are, or have any relation with me, but I dont feel scare about them. In fact, they are pretty safe to me. These people all sat in a table, a mix gender group of 4 to 5 (vague memories), calmly watching mom in the door, not showing any emotions nor sounds. They are just watching, and I cant really see their faces, so maybe the reason why they dont show emotions. So from the balcony, I was kind of hiding behind my collegue, seeing mom run back and front to the front door with the knife. She is mad and crazy, very hostile, and yelling something I cant remember. She wanted me, but cant walk through the gate. I feel scare and kind of intimidated and scare, but i think mostly because of her crazy behaviours. Then I woke up, heart palpitations, my body feel stiff, a lil scare feeling echo from the dream. But i was able to calm myself after couple minutes.
Dream interpretation can be quite intricate, as the elements present in a dream often symbolize aspects of the dreamer's waking life, emotions, and subconscious thoughts. Here's a detailed interpretation of the dream you described:
Setting and Relationships: The dream takes place in familiar homes, particularly those related to your family dynamics. Your friend’s house symbolizes a safe haven or a place of comfort amidst your family’s turmoil. This juxtaposition of homes — your mother’s, your grandmother’s, and your father’s mother’s — illustrates the complex relationships you have with your family, feelings of obligation, and the emotional burden you might be experiencing.
Parental Figures: The presence of your birth mother and grandmother signifies unresolved conflicts and fears about your family. Your feelings of anger and disgust towards your mother suggest that you perceive her as a manipulative figure who has caused you emotional pain. Her potentially going to jail is symbolic of her being held accountable for her actions, which may reflect your desire for justice or relief from her influence.
Feeling Overburdened: The dialogue in the dream indicates a significant sense of responsibility, as you express frustration about taking care of multiple family members. This sentiment might reveal your feelings of being overburdened by familial expectations and the emotional toll of being involved in their lives. The phrase "am I superhero?" humorously speaks to your inner turmoil regarding these responsibilities, questioning your ability to manage their needs without losing yourself in the process.
Fear and Aloofness: The actions of your mother taking on a horror movie trope — standing up in a strange way and coming towards you with a knife — represent your fears of confrontation and the threats you perceive from familial obligations. It reflects a part of you that feels the need to escape the emotional weight these relationships impose. The knife symbolizes a potential emotional or psychological injury, suggesting that interactions with your mother might feel violent or threatening.
The Colleague's Role: Your colleague becomes a figure of support, and you find temporary solace in his presence as you navigate the chaos that your mother represents. His choice to run away reflects an instinct for self-protection; his awareness of the danger your mother poses emphasizes the severity of your feelings. This element of the dream may highlight your yearning for allies, or safe companions, who help you evade the toxic aspects of your family.
The Onlookers: The group of people at the table who are calm and uninterested in your mother’s actions suggest a protective layer in your psyche. They may represent your subconscious mind's attempt to create a buffer against the emotional chaos brought on by your mother. Their passive observation may indicate your desire to remain uninvolved and detached from the turmoil of your family life.
Waking Experience: The feelings of heart palpitations and fear upon waking indicate the emotional intensity of the dream. This reflects a release of pent-up anxiety associated with your family dynamics. The ability to calm yourself afterward signifies resilience and the capacity to regain control over your emotions.
In essence, this dream seems to be a representation of your struggle with familial obligations, feelings of being trapped or overwhelmed, and the desire for safety and autonomy. The projection of fear and chaos surrounding your mother symbolizes a deeper inner conflict regarding control and your responsibilities toward family members who may drain your energy. This dream serves as a powerful reflection of your current emotional landscape, revealing the stressors you might need to acknowledge and address in your waking life for healing and personal empowerment.